'Koped' this from Wei Qi's blog. I find this video really meaningful, and just love every single bit of it! Ha. If you have got some 12 minutes to spare, watch the whole thing, and you'll soon be enlightened by it! Ha.
Since this month has been so unpleasant, I shall add this amazing video to reduce the negativity! Enjoy watching! :)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Smile! Smile! Smile!
Goodbye January 2009!
Finally! The last day of January has arrived!!! I have been waiting for this day to come since god knows when man! Somehow it felt as though this month had taken forever to pass by! Because the end of this month simply means that there will only be 11 days remaining before I finally ORD!!! WOOHOO! Really cannot wait to leave the world's most screwed up organisation! Haha.
As I have mentioned earlier, 2009 begin with a bumpy start for me. Well, those bumps seemed to have dragged on throughout this entire month. The number of unpleasant events outweighed the joyful ones. Most of these unhappiness either came from TPO or WAT. Oh wells. Chinese New Year celebrations also seemed rather dull this year. I only went out to visit my relatives on the first day of CNY, with the second day doing nothing but just staying at home playing RA3. Kinda sad, as it doesn't used to be like this. In fact, it has NEVER been like this before at all! Usually I would be out visiting on the second day as well. But not this time, due to certain unforeseen misfortunes. Hai. Seems like the festivity spirit has diminished as I grow older. :(
There's this one thing that I'm currently rather depressed about. It's an issue with my health status. I went to see my specialist for my nerve problems the previous Thursday; told him that my condition has somewhat deteriorated, that I was feeling more random pains and twitches throughout my body. He then performed some basic nerve reflex tests on me, looked through my records once again, and made this remark, "I'm not very pleased with your reflexes being too active. Either you are too anxious, which you aren't in this case, or else there must be something wrong." I thought it should be quite a good thing right, to have active reflexes. However, he said otherwise, which got me really worried and sad from them on. Hence, with this diagnosis, more tests have to be done to find the source of the problem; 2 blood tests as well as a MRI on the head. My blood was drawn on the day itself, while the MRI will be conducted on the 10th of Feb.
Hai. I'm really very paranoid right now, coz I fear the results of the MRI scan. What if there's really something wrong with my head? How then am I suppose to deal with it? Of course, all these worries are baseless, as I have not even done the scan yet, and the results aren't out as well. But I just cannot help it you see! Sometimes I just feel that life's so unfair! Why can't I just be a healthy individual, but must have all these nonsense bugging me?! Hai. I'm keeping my fingers crossed right now, and hope that nothing is wrong with me!! I just wish all these pains and twitches will go away, stop bothering me, let me lead a normal life once again!
Oh wells. I will try to remain positive amidst this giant pool of negativity. I shall stop here coz continuing this post simply gets me more depressed! All I want to say is goodbye, unhappy January. Hopefully February will be a better month to come! Till then.
As I have mentioned earlier, 2009 begin with a bumpy start for me. Well, those bumps seemed to have dragged on throughout this entire month. The number of unpleasant events outweighed the joyful ones. Most of these unhappiness either came from TPO or WAT. Oh wells. Chinese New Year celebrations also seemed rather dull this year. I only went out to visit my relatives on the first day of CNY, with the second day doing nothing but just staying at home playing RA3. Kinda sad, as it doesn't used to be like this. In fact, it has NEVER been like this before at all! Usually I would be out visiting on the second day as well. But not this time, due to certain unforeseen misfortunes. Hai. Seems like the festivity spirit has diminished as I grow older. :(
There's this one thing that I'm currently rather depressed about. It's an issue with my health status. I went to see my specialist for my nerve problems the previous Thursday; told him that my condition has somewhat deteriorated, that I was feeling more random pains and twitches throughout my body. He then performed some basic nerve reflex tests on me, looked through my records once again, and made this remark, "I'm not very pleased with your reflexes being too active. Either you are too anxious, which you aren't in this case, or else there must be something wrong." I thought it should be quite a good thing right, to have active reflexes. However, he said otherwise, which got me really worried and sad from them on. Hence, with this diagnosis, more tests have to be done to find the source of the problem; 2 blood tests as well as a MRI on the head. My blood was drawn on the day itself, while the MRI will be conducted on the 10th of Feb.
Hai. I'm really very paranoid right now, coz I fear the results of the MRI scan. What if there's really something wrong with my head? How then am I suppose to deal with it? Of course, all these worries are baseless, as I have not even done the scan yet, and the results aren't out as well. But I just cannot help it you see! Sometimes I just feel that life's so unfair! Why can't I just be a healthy individual, but must have all these nonsense bugging me?! Hai. I'm keeping my fingers crossed right now, and hope that nothing is wrong with me!! I just wish all these pains and twitches will go away, stop bothering me, let me lead a normal life once again!
Oh wells. I will try to remain positive amidst this giant pool of negativity. I shall stop here coz continuing this post simply gets me more depressed! All I want to say is goodbye, unhappy January. Hopefully February will be a better month to come! Till then.
Friday, January 30, 2009
After Some Time...
Alright. I know it's really very bad of me to not have updated this blog of mine for such a long long time. Lol. I realised that the last time I made a post, it was some 12 days ago. Furthermore, that wasn't any proper update, but simply some usual ranting over TPO! Haha. Coz TPO was seriously being very unreasonable at that time, so much so that it really got onto my nerves and made me real mad! Lol. Well, I had actually wanted to made a post on the very first day of CNY, not only to wish everyone happy CNY, but to also include my new year resolutions which I had delayed for so long! However, in the end, words keep getting stuck in my head as I found myself having much difficulty trying to express what I had wished to write, so I gave up and that post was never publish! Ha! Well don't worry, I will publish that post on the 1st of Feb, which is tmr, to give the next month somewhat a fresh and brand new start! :)
Well, nothing much has happened so far, other than for the fact that Jan seems to be passing by real slowly, and that I've probably done the most amount of spring cleaning thus far, as compared to the amount combined altogether for the past years of my life! Lol. TPO also had loads of nonsense planned, with what they call it as 'cohesion' for the battalion. Well, in my opinion, all these events are there mainly so as to not let us clear as much off as we could have. Oh! Know why I got called back on the 18th of Jan?! It's really because I have the dumbest up-upstair ever on Earth! The story goes like this. There is this 3RD upstair, who's in charge of the scheduling of our off and leave. However, this 3RD upstair did not do a very good job, and hence the up-upstair was really mad! So, to punish this 3RD upstair, not only did up-upstair called him to return back to camp, but also all those who applied off and leave under this 3RD upstair, to book in! Freaking dumb right?! In the end, I went back with my precious Monday totally wasted, as there was really nothing to do in camp at all! Outrageous alright! Hai.
Nvm. It's over. Come to think of it, I will be ORD-ing real soon! Yipee! :) And this will also mean such ranting over the TPO will become less seen or even non-existent in future. Haha. Anyway, there's another thing I will like to mention; my work and travel program! Hai. In the end, the interview did not happen on the 17th of Jan, that very Saturday which I was SO looking forward to! Arghz! I was really pissed off with the agency coz only at the last minute, like 3 days before the interview, they called me and told me that there's an online application which I must complete, or else the employers weren't willing to do the interview! Yet I wasn't able to complete that damn application coz I keep having a login error! It was only on Friday then did the error got rectified. But I was extremely disappointed by then, coz it means the confirmation of my work dates will be delayed, and so all the plans for travel, booking of air tickets etc. will also be delayed!
Guess what?! It has been delayed up till now, and the days continue to passed by with no progress over my application. I've basically done it up already, but the agency has to be on a break for one full week during this lunar festival! Like wth right?! When other companies only take maximum 2 or 3 days of break, my agency has to be closed for one full week and only open next month! ArghZ! Speaking about all these simply makes my blood boil! Because of the consistent delaying, I've missed the Qantas sale period for the air tickets to London! DAMN IT! I could have saved as much as 400 freaking bucks if I had my work dates confirmed earlier! Hai. Damn sian! Now, I can only hope that by next week, the interview will be done, I receive confirmation for my work dates, and the entire application be completed! I just hope that there will be no more delays, that I will successfully be able to embark on my journey at the end of next month, 24th Feb to be exact!
Oh wells. May I be blessed with great luck for all my hopes to come true! Lol. Till then!
Well, nothing much has happened so far, other than for the fact that Jan seems to be passing by real slowly, and that I've probably done the most amount of spring cleaning thus far, as compared to the amount combined altogether for the past years of my life! Lol. TPO also had loads of nonsense planned, with what they call it as 'cohesion' for the battalion. Well, in my opinion, all these events are there mainly so as to not let us clear as much off as we could have. Oh! Know why I got called back on the 18th of Jan?! It's really because I have the dumbest up-upstair ever on Earth! The story goes like this. There is this 3RD upstair, who's in charge of the scheduling of our off and leave. However, this 3RD upstair did not do a very good job, and hence the up-upstair was really mad! So, to punish this 3RD upstair, not only did up-upstair called him to return back to camp, but also all those who applied off and leave under this 3RD upstair, to book in! Freaking dumb right?! In the end, I went back with my precious Monday totally wasted, as there was really nothing to do in camp at all! Outrageous alright! Hai.
Nvm. It's over. Come to think of it, I will be ORD-ing real soon! Yipee! :) And this will also mean such ranting over the TPO will become less seen or even non-existent in future. Haha. Anyway, there's another thing I will like to mention; my work and travel program! Hai. In the end, the interview did not happen on the 17th of Jan, that very Saturday which I was SO looking forward to! Arghz! I was really pissed off with the agency coz only at the last minute, like 3 days before the interview, they called me and told me that there's an online application which I must complete, or else the employers weren't willing to do the interview! Yet I wasn't able to complete that damn application coz I keep having a login error! It was only on Friday then did the error got rectified. But I was extremely disappointed by then, coz it means the confirmation of my work dates will be delayed, and so all the plans for travel, booking of air tickets etc. will also be delayed!
Guess what?! It has been delayed up till now, and the days continue to passed by with no progress over my application. I've basically done it up already, but the agency has to be on a break for one full week during this lunar festival! Like wth right?! When other companies only take maximum 2 or 3 days of break, my agency has to be closed for one full week and only open next month! ArghZ! Speaking about all these simply makes my blood boil! Because of the consistent delaying, I've missed the Qantas sale period for the air tickets to London! DAMN IT! I could have saved as much as 400 freaking bucks if I had my work dates confirmed earlier! Hai. Damn sian! Now, I can only hope that by next week, the interview will be done, I receive confirmation for my work dates, and the entire application be completed! I just hope that there will be no more delays, that I will successfully be able to embark on my journey at the end of next month, 24th Feb to be exact!
Oh wells. May I be blessed with great luck for all my hopes to come true! Lol. Till then!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
TO HELL WITH TPO!
I FREAKING HATE TPO!
HOW CAN YOU JUST CANCEL MY OFF FOR TMR AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE?
WHEN I'VE MADE SO MUCH PLANS ALREADY?!
FREAK FREAK FREAK!!
SCREWED UP ORGANIZATION.
THE UPSTAIRS ARE ALL SCREWED!
DAMN THIS LOUSY ORGANIZATION!!
NO WHERE NEAR PRESTIGIOUS MAN!!!
I REALLY CANNOT WAIT TO LEAVE IT!!
ARGHZ!!!!!!!!!!
HOW CAN YOU JUST CANCEL MY OFF FOR TMR AT THE VERY LAST MINUTE?
WHEN I'VE MADE SO MUCH PLANS ALREADY?!
FREAK FREAK FREAK!!
SCREWED UP ORGANIZATION.
THE UPSTAIRS ARE ALL SCREWED!
DAMN THIS LOUSY ORGANIZATION!!
NO WHERE NEAR PRESTIGIOUS MAN!!!
I REALLY CANNOT WAIT TO LEAVE IT!!
ARGHZ!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
YYY!!! Thanks for the encouragement man! Yup! I'll never ever give this precious opportunity up man! It's gonna be a once in a lifetime experience, and I've really fought very hard for this, so I will stick with it no matter what! HA!
But thankfully, Kokwai has given me the affirmation that he too will go no matter what! :) So that means I don't have to worry about company! Hehe.
Alright. I don't have much time to blog. Gotta get ready for Viv's 21st bdae party later! Ha. This entire week has been wasted in camp, once again. Nothing much out of the ordinary happened! I just hope next Saturday quickly arrives! Got an interview to ace and also have to confirm my work dates, meaning finalising the entire travel period! Exciting man! Lol. Till then.
But thankfully, Kokwai has given me the affirmation that he too will go no matter what! :) So that means I don't have to worry about company! Hehe.
Alright. I don't have much time to blog. Gotta get ready for Viv's 21st bdae party later! Ha. This entire week has been wasted in camp, once again. Nothing much out of the ordinary happened! I just hope next Saturday quickly arrives! Got an interview to ace and also have to confirm my work dates, meaning finalising the entire travel period! Exciting man! Lol. Till then.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
2009! A Bumpy Start! But It Ends There...
Alright! So 2009 did not start off with a good note for me. A series of unfortunate events have to happen, which made the first few days of this new year rather bleak for me. It is also why I wrote unusually little for the very first post of this year, coz basically I did not have the mood to blog much. So what exactly happened?! Well, the only thing that can really make me terribly upset and be in total unease has to occur once again after almost 2 good years of clean record; my parents going into cold war! :S I mean, it's ok if they quarrel, but to be in cold war with each other, thereby causing so much unhappiness in the family, is something I totally disdain. Arghz. The worst thing is that this has to happen on new year's day! How more happy can that get?! Hai. Just cannot understand why people do not just settle a conflict on the spot and move on, but must drag it and allow the gloom to manifest to a huge extent such that all parties simply get hurt in the end?! Thankfully my parents are talking to one another once again! Yet the damage is done, as my mood for the new year has plunged to an all time low. Hopefully this will NEVER EVER happen again!!
Another sad news that I have to tell is with regards to my USA trip. Hai. At first, I thought everything was going on quite smoothly as planned, that Kok Wai has agreed to go work with me, while Ming Han and Xin Ming agrees to go travel with the two of us. Yet it did not turn out as fine after all. When I told KW that our work is confirmed, he's like not as interested, and seemed unwilling to go. Maybe I'm just thinking too much. But hai. Me being a SNAG, I really cannot help but notice this change of attitude from him. Furthermore, when I tried to confirm with MH and XM if they are still keen on the travel part last Friday, the answer I received was more than shocking. Especially MH, who was originally quite keen on this travel trip too, now says that he'll consider carefully through this weekend and give me a final answer on Monday. And XM, wants to go but is unwilling to part with this large sum of money for this form of enjoyment. Can you just imagine how lost I could get when suddenly these 3 friends of mine semi-pangsehed me?! Hai.
Oh wells. I WILL NOT BE DISHEARTENED BY THEM! Honestly, when I know 3 of them seemed more or less unwilling to go on this trip, I myself somehow lost the motivation as well. Especially when KW dropped the bomb too. (Ok, he did not say he don't want to go, but just that he's not that interested anymore. I hope I'm wrong about that!) So I went out with Darius yesterday, basically to distract myself and try not to think about this matter for a moment. Then somehow we appeared at this fountain outside Vivo, which I must say has some magical effects on the soul. Lol. Coz as I was strolling around it, I suddenly received some form of enlightenment! Haha. Like it just dawned on me on what I should do to resolve this matter. I came to realise that it was merely just 3 months ago, sometime in the beginning of October, when I just learnt of this work/travel to USA program from Kimberle. From then on, I was totally hooked onto it, kept telling myself that I MUST be on this program no matter what!
Yeah! Looking at my blog posts from Oct to Dec, there's at least one post that is work/travel related! Lol. It showed how much I've wanted this program! I'm particularly impressed with my own determination on getting my application approved by the agency despite me not being a student yet! Haha. And they did; calling me one fine night, telling me the good news! Lol. I can still recall that I was extremely overjoyed hearing that news, ringing up Berns, Gloree and my parents to spread my happiness! Lol. And then when I was in India, my mind was totally preoccupied with the outcome of my request, wondering whether if the agency would be able to get me an employer that will hire during the March to May period. I had countless nights of sleep because of that can?! Was really quite distressed over the issue at that time. Lol. Then came December, in which I rang up the agency occassionally enquiring about the outcome, as well as waiting as patiently as I could ever get. Finally, just last Monday, the agency said that the US side has affirmed my employment for the period I've requested. It really was the greatest news I've ever heard, before 08 ends!
It goes to show that all this while, I've wanted the program so badly! Hence why now the change of attitude, with giving up even crossing my mind?! THIS SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING AT ALL; SUCH THOUGHTS SHOULD NEVER HAVE SURFACED IN THE FRIST PLACE! I've come to a conclusion and have decided that even if my friends do not want to go in the end, I'll still go ahead and do this. Even if it means ALL BY MYSELF! Yeah! I've wanted this and so I will go ahead with it no matter what! Haha. :)
Of course, I still hope that the four of us will go together in the end. Oh wells. We shall see. Anyway, 2009 indeed has not begin with a good start. But it does not mean that this bleakness will drag on for the rest of the year! I'll make sure this year will be even better than the last! Ha. So I'll say this again! 2009! An exciting year ahead! Woohoo! :)
Another sad news that I have to tell is with regards to my USA trip. Hai. At first, I thought everything was going on quite smoothly as planned, that Kok Wai has agreed to go work with me, while Ming Han and Xin Ming agrees to go travel with the two of us. Yet it did not turn out as fine after all. When I told KW that our work is confirmed, he's like not as interested, and seemed unwilling to go. Maybe I'm just thinking too much. But hai. Me being a SNAG, I really cannot help but notice this change of attitude from him. Furthermore, when I tried to confirm with MH and XM if they are still keen on the travel part last Friday, the answer I received was more than shocking. Especially MH, who was originally quite keen on this travel trip too, now says that he'll consider carefully through this weekend and give me a final answer on Monday. And XM, wants to go but is unwilling to part with this large sum of money for this form of enjoyment. Can you just imagine how lost I could get when suddenly these 3 friends of mine semi-pangsehed me?! Hai.
Oh wells. I WILL NOT BE DISHEARTENED BY THEM! Honestly, when I know 3 of them seemed more or less unwilling to go on this trip, I myself somehow lost the motivation as well. Especially when KW dropped the bomb too. (Ok, he did not say he don't want to go, but just that he's not that interested anymore. I hope I'm wrong about that!) So I went out with Darius yesterday, basically to distract myself and try not to think about this matter for a moment. Then somehow we appeared at this fountain outside Vivo, which I must say has some magical effects on the soul. Lol. Coz as I was strolling around it, I suddenly received some form of enlightenment! Haha. Like it just dawned on me on what I should do to resolve this matter. I came to realise that it was merely just 3 months ago, sometime in the beginning of October, when I just learnt of this work/travel to USA program from Kimberle. From then on, I was totally hooked onto it, kept telling myself that I MUST be on this program no matter what!
Yeah! Looking at my blog posts from Oct to Dec, there's at least one post that is work/travel related! Lol. It showed how much I've wanted this program! I'm particularly impressed with my own determination on getting my application approved by the agency despite me not being a student yet! Haha. And they did; calling me one fine night, telling me the good news! Lol. I can still recall that I was extremely overjoyed hearing that news, ringing up Berns, Gloree and my parents to spread my happiness! Lol. And then when I was in India, my mind was totally preoccupied with the outcome of my request, wondering whether if the agency would be able to get me an employer that will hire during the March to May period. I had countless nights of sleep because of that can?! Was really quite distressed over the issue at that time. Lol. Then came December, in which I rang up the agency occassionally enquiring about the outcome, as well as waiting as patiently as I could ever get. Finally, just last Monday, the agency said that the US side has affirmed my employment for the period I've requested. It really was the greatest news I've ever heard, before 08 ends!
It goes to show that all this while, I've wanted the program so badly! Hence why now the change of attitude, with giving up even crossing my mind?! THIS SHOULD NOT BE HAPPENING AT ALL; SUCH THOUGHTS SHOULD NEVER HAVE SURFACED IN THE FRIST PLACE! I've come to a conclusion and have decided that even if my friends do not want to go in the end, I'll still go ahead and do this. Even if it means ALL BY MYSELF! Yeah! I've wanted this and so I will go ahead with it no matter what! Haha. :)
Of course, I still hope that the four of us will go together in the end. Oh wells. We shall see. Anyway, 2009 indeed has not begin with a good start. But it does not mean that this bleakness will drag on for the rest of the year! I'll make sure this year will be even better than the last! Ha. So I'll say this again! 2009! An exciting year ahead! Woohoo! :)
Thursday, January 1, 2009
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